I cleaned my flat today,
Then baked a cake for my friend,
I remembered something I had to write down,
But I dropped my pen,

For some reason I just stood there, staring at the floor,
My mind then went into a tearful turmoil,
My whole body went numb,
And a stew pot of locked up emotions just suddenly broke it’s coil,

I just started screaming,
Whilst crying so hard that I could no longer see,
A life time of trying to stay strong,
And yet, the simplest of things just brought me to my knees,

I slid to the ground,
And curled into a ball on the floor,
Cuddled myself in the fetal position,
I suppose I just couldn’t take it anymore,

I was lost in my tears,
My thoughts and feelings now all paralysed,
It was like I could literally feel my body resetting,
Floating on a blanket of tears, completely immobilised,

I could barely breathe,
With my whole body trembling,
Rocking back and forth as my tears still fell,
Slowly forgetting everything,

I felt dizzy,
And the air I was breathing started feeling lighter and lighter,
I was floating on a river of tears, high in the clouds,
With little reminders that my chest was getting tighter and tighter,

The room started getting dark,
And my eyes started closing,
It felt like I was drunk,
Slowly fading away, trapped in a body that was frozen,

I woke up about half hour later,
And picked myself up of the floor,
I then picked up my pen and I wrote…….
“Caster Sugar…. Get more”

Wrote on 11/11/2023