Category: Poems

I feel like I’m at a standstill,Whilst I watch this world rush past me,I’m trying to just take a brief moment,But a blink feels like an eternity,I’m still trying to figure it out what I actually want from my life,But I don’t think I will ever know,So I settle for...

Earth is just one big insane asylum,And everyone thinks that they are a nurse,Our intelligence has grown into ignorance,It’s a gift that turned into a curse,We are all fighting over the smallest of scraps,When there is more than enough to go around,And we spend a lifetime searching,For answers not meant...

I wake up everyday,And I say thank you cos I woke up,But secretly I wish that I didn’t,So can someone speak to life…. Cos I think there’s been a mix up,Cos lately I’m annoyed,That death didn’t take me,Cos at least if I was gone,My head could finally be free,I’m tired,Tired...

I cleaned my flat today,Then baked a cake for my friend,I remembered something I had to write down,But I dropped my pen,For some reason I just stood there, staring at the floor,My mind then went into a tearful turmoil,My whole body went numb,And a stew pot of locked up emotions...

Living in a world where money is everything,And being poor is a sin,Where numbers determine your fate,And your future is based on interest rates,We spend our entire lives working for the green,And yet a happy and content life is rarely seen,And the scary thing is that the people in charge...

A life full of demons,Circling around in my mind,And a sense of belonging on this earth,That I am constantly trying to find,With my heart broken,And my trust non-existent,With no true friends by my side,And the family I do have all far and distant,I fight everyday alone,In a war that no...

I’ve spent a life time running,Running to escape who I am,Never accepting that I could one day recover,I always just thought that I was forever damned,I convinced myself that I had to suffer,That is was my sole purpose for being here,And in order for me to pay my debt to...

How I long to be accepted for who I am,And not for what people think they see,And how I long for people to look at the kindness in my heart,And for them to rid their assumptions of me,How I long to feel like I’m a part of this society,By not...

When I look up to the sky,In the middle of a darkened night,Losing track of time in the depths of insomnia,And nothing but worry’s and demons cloud my sight,I try to focus on nothing but nothing itself,Usually, to no avail,But sometimes I do manage,And when I do, the never ending...

I was born a broken man,Into a broken home,Sent down straight from the devils trashcan,And on this lonely planet I shall forever roam,Born to never know who I am,Born just to suffer and to stand out,Born to be scared to even whisper,Yet always prompted to stand up and shout,Lately I’ve...

Lying awake in bed,Paralysed deep in my thought,Seeking long lost answers,To lessons life should have already taught,Am I even good enough for this?To just simply exist amongst it all,Who even am I?But a deluded and confused fool,I sit there pointlessly numb,With my mind pacing and racing,Pondering my crazy thoughts,With dreams...

A new razor awaits,Aftershave at the ready,A deep breath in,To make my hand steady,A little tear,And the slightest of grins,Time to face the demons,That takes residence within,One slice for punishment,Another for the pain,One slice to remember who I am,Another to forget my name,One slice cos this is what I deserve,Another...

Once upon a time little Callum had a dream,To be happy and full of self-esteem,To not have fear and to be happy in life,To settle down, have kids and a wife,To live in a world that was safe and secure,To be happy and content and nothing much moreBut one day...

In the darkest of corners,In the depths of my mind,There is a young boy called Callum,Not yet distinguished or defined,He is free,From the punishment of age,He is innocent and pureWith his happiness yet to be caged,I try talking to him,But he doesn’t answer back,I apologise to him every single day,For...

Picking up the pieces of my broken life,With guilt and shame cut deep like a knife,With my depression the worst it ever has been,And heartache straight out of a movie scene,My loneliness started feeling a bit too lonely,Everyone wants a cuddle but no one wanted one from me,I heard of...

With a cigarette hanging out my mouth,I’m a damaged man riddled with mental health,I pour myself a drink at 10am,To drown myself out and them,I huddle on the floor,Begging for no more,Never hungry, barely eating,Losing so much weight, at least fatness I’m beating,Put my iPod on random,Manic laughing listening to...

Please don’t notice me,I’m in a bad place today,Please just leave me be,And let me fade away,I’m very anxious and nervous,And I’m holding back tears,Lost in a tearful fearful emptiness,And it’s been building up for years,I have stuff to sort today,It’s the reason I was forced to come outside,I just...

A thug in a white coat giving me medication,Locked up for a month for angry meditation,All I hear is the crazies screaming,With me mad as a hatter thinking I’m dreaming,Looking at the bruises that the coppers gave me,Praying to my atheist god too come and save me,Getting my backie stolen...

I’m at the carnival for the lost,The damaged and the broken,On the merry go round all by myself,And on the fumes of misery I’m choking,The tune is all distorted,Once a delight to hear,Now all demonic,Spreading hate and fear,The horse of death,For which I am perched upon,Go’s up and down and...

When I go to sleep,I know that demons start to creep,Haunting my every dream,Watching over me as I restPutting my insecurities to the test,Always the same old theme,Dark demented beings with cold black hearts,Staring straight at me from the start,Sat at the end of my bed,Invisible in day, only clear...

Will I ever know the reason?Why my mind has performed treason,Why I hate myself so much,Why I beg for a painful death and such,Why I feel not worthy of life,Why I slice myself with razor and knife,Why my demons never stop,Why my life for death I’d swap,Why I drink until...

I’m a strong survivor,Who barely makes it threw it each day,A strong leader of men,Who’s got lost somewhere on the way,I’m a hopeless romantic,Whose heart is broken,I’ll give you the air we need,But on it I’m choking,I’m a poet,But I don’t know how to spell,And as my words send your...

No matter where I go,No matter what I do,I feel like I’m a burden,Not a part of all of you,I feel like an alien,I feel all alone,I feel like I’m unwanted by society,And this overwhelming feeling is all I have ever known,Maybe I would be better off dead,Maybe it would...

Today is another day,Another day of loneliness and isolation,Another day of not feeling wanted,Another day of chronic masturbation,Today is another day of feeling tired,Fatigued, old and unwell,Another day of being tortured by my demons,Another day of hell,Today is another day,Another day of being broke with no place to go,Another day...

My river of tears that I swim in,Getting deeper and deeper the more I swim,I flooded the banks and I flooded the land,Even the reaper didn’t have any of this planned,My lonely tears keep falling down,I’m know my fate, I’m sure to drown,Stormy weather’s straight ahead,But clear skies a wait...

Lock the door,Close the curtains,I ain’t going to smile anytime soon,That’s for certain,Feeling depressed,Not eaten today,I’m nothing but a tearful burden,Only in the way,My depression is too muchMy pain is too real,I’m numb and empty,Too numb to feel,A tear rolls down my face,A singular lonesome tear,I hug my pillow,Whilst shaking...

I’m a man of love,And I’m a man of hate,I always try to do what’s right,But I’ve made too many mistakes,I saw the sun rise,And I saw the sun set,Then I fell asleep,And the peace and I never met,I saw the dark,I saw the light,I rejected the peace,Cos I saw...

I don’t know who I am any more,I ain’t the person I once saw,I just want to fade away and go,But why? That I don’t know,I’m broken and have been for a long time,I want calm but only more demons I find,All I want is for inner peace,But I know...

A ready meal for one,A bottle of vodka calling my name,A room full of emptiness,Reminding me I failed at loves game,With Christmas fast approaching,Less than a week away,I pray that someone asks for my friendship,But it defiantly won’t be today,All I want is a cuddle at Christmas,All I want is...

Another night I can’t sleep,Filled with loneliness, regrets and isolation,I try to relax as the sun rises,But self-hate is my only meditation,I stay clear from drugs,And I try not to drown myself in drink,My head and thoughts are empty,But the quietness is so loud I can’t hear myself think,Lately, women...